So I’ve made it three weeks in a row with three new songs. Each of these songs have taken me roughly two afternoons to complete and they have me feeling pretty good. God is definitely reminding me of why it’s good to be creating and writing; it makes me feel good and I’m able to make a unique contribution to the Church. What I realized this week was that through these original songs, I have the opportunity to write a song on behalf of the people of Oikos Church; a song with our vision, values, mission, language, and style. They are songs that are rising up form within the landscape of our oikos. One of the many reasons the missionary worship leader should be writing music; it reinforces the movement we are desiring to see and be a part of.
So Psalm 32 is this week’s psalm. It’s a psalm of David that has resonated with me for over a handful of years. Many years ago I was in a season of life where I was rebelling against the Lord and living two separate lives. I had recently divorced (2009) and found myself living with many secrets that I kept from my closest friends. It was like I had cancer in my bones… I was aching inside and all my energy was spent trying to make it through the day. I believed the evil one’s lies that I was alone and that if I was transparent with my sins that I would be shamed and pushed out. But reading Psalm 32 gave me an awakening that rang so true. Here is the verse:
1 Oh, what joy for those
whose disobedience is forgiven,
whose sin is put out of sight!
2 Yes, what joy for those
whose record the Lord has cleared of guilt,
whose lives are lived in complete honesty!
3 When I refused to confess my sin,
my body wasted away,
and I groaned all day long.
4 Day and night your hand of discipline was heavy on me.
My strength evaporated like water in the summer heat. Interlude
5 Finally, I confessed all my sins to you
and stopped trying to hide my guilt.
I said to myself, “I will confess my rebellion to the Lord.”
And you forgave me! All my guilt is gone. – PSALM 32:1-5 (NLT)
So here is my latest song: “Oh What Joy (Psalm 32)”. It’s not as ‘worshipful’ as the last two, so it’s meant more as a reflective song. It has some lyrical dissonance, which I like in this song. For such a song with a name like this, you’d think it should be more happy. But with the Maj7 chords it takes on a different feel until the very end where I abandon the 7th’s and let the joy shine through the fullness of the open major chords as I modulate up a key. Enjoy! And please let me know what you think!
With my sinful self I hide in the night
Masking my face; Avoiding the light
Lies upon lips upon death have I kissed
My bones and my groans they harbor my list
Oh what joy! Unfailing love
Oh what joy! My life becomes
Oh what joy! My sin is gone
Oh what joy! This is my song
Much sorrow surrounds when darkness takes root
The hurt and the scars running deep from abuse
Frowns upon faces In so many places
I’m wasting away and I’m all out of patience
In Christ alone my flesh made whole
Upon the cross he saved my soul (x4)